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Hi, I am Mari Kiisma

A PROFOUNDLY LOST  ARTIST

I have always dreamed of becoming a visual artist. However, I’ve failed quite a few times, suppressed my dreams, and developed depression. As a result, I lost my creative identity, artistic style, and my spark.

But after a lot of self-development and reaching a breaking point, I’ve decided to turn my life around. I’m pursuing art again. All I have are some rusty skills, life and work experience, and a voice inside urging me to give my all.

I created this blog to track the raw, messy reality of that journey. You’re welcome here to watch it all unfold, but if you’re looking for your own transformation, don’t just watch me do it. Use this as your sign to start your own journey, too. Let’s figure this out together.

Latest Blog Posts

  • This is the second part of ‘The Story of My First KDP Coloring Book: From the birth of the idea to its eventual failure.’ In PART 1, I discussed the creative evolution of the idea and its execution. In this part, I’ll share......

  • The story of my first KDP coloring book: From the birth of the idea to its eventual failure. It turned out to be much longer than I expected. To make it easier to follow, I’ve split it into two parts. In the first......

  • There was a long period where I lost my creative spark and stopped doing any kind of art, hoping that happiness and fulfillment awaited me elsewhere. I tried to explain it away, ignore it, or override it, but the creative need inside kept......

  • It has been two years since my last blog post — things didn’t go as I had hoped. Looking back now, I can see signs, even in that very first post, that my blogging was destined to fail. Vision for my blog. When......

  • It has been a few weeks since I made my last post. I had hoped to write another post shortly after, but the following week, I experienced serious brain fog and sleepiness, which made it difficult to concentrate. This and the fear of......

  • NB! This blog post is no longer relevant and is kept for history. Reasons in the following post – When authentic writing is surprisingly hard. Now to the first unedited post: Hello, and welcome to the first blog post! My vision for this......

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